whoop whoop

Just turned in my second packet of foster care paperwork.  What's next you ask?  2 home visits and then we are licensed!!! 


The hubs and I are going to move our bedroom downstairs to free up a bedroom.  For those of you who are already licensed... Should I make the second bedroom for a girl, so we have one bedroom for a boy and one for a girl?

Also, I went to a baby shower over the weekend.  I didn't hold the baby, but I felt ok throughout the whole thing.  I am proud of myself, b/c I have not been to one in about 3 years!

last resort

Ok so one of our family members have recently had a failed IVF attempt.  I was told that they are still not considering adoption and think it is an "absolute last resort" .  I will say that this was disturbing to say the least.  I hate that.  I will say, I have always known I was going to adopt.  I started babysitting in fifth grade, been a nanny to six kids, worked in daycares, and have been a social worker for about six years.  The problem with infertility is that is becomes an obsession.  Once you start treatment, it is hard to quit.  Let me say for the record, I want to have a house full of kids, not just a house of mini-me's.  My husband and I had started filling out paperwork for adoption when I found out I was pregnant with my son. Maybe I don't understand..... but I think kids are kids.  Yes, it is cool that my son looks like a cross between my brother and the hubs, but is that why I love him so much? Probably not.  I  just think that the idea of any kid playing second fiddle is unfair.  I have always thought that we would be LUCKY to adopt a child, not the child to be lucky that we graced them with an adoption. I hope I don't offend anyone.  I just don't want to stay in infertile hell, if my goal is to just love and raise a child, nor do I want to see family members so depressed I barely see them once a year. To each their own....I know that, unfortunately there is no easy road. 

Hub's surgery

So the hub's had his varicosiele surgery yesterday.  The surgery lasted an hour, and  is now recovering at home.  The urologist said that he had five varicose veins which is "above average" , he said that most of the men he sees only has about three. He said that this should not only help with the pain and discomfort but with fertility as well.  My husband is an ultra-marathon  runner and it can become painful.  The hubs has to take a week off work and has to completely stay off his feet.  This is going to be the toughest thing because he is not one to sit around the house! 

busy busy.....

So this was my third week back to work.  I love my job, I do.  I am currently at two schools, I will be there for about 3 more weeks until I switch to another two schools.  At my afternoon school, the kids were waiting during their recess time to watch me pull into the parking lot. Then they were screaming my name when I got out of the car.  They honestly look forward to seeing me,and I the same of them. This group of kids have either emotional and/or educational issues, and they are the most down to earth kids I have ever worked with!  It is great to know that if you HAVE to work, that at least you love your job. 

The soccer directer called this week, and needs more toddler soccer coaches.  When I signed my son up in the fall we were about to do IUI, so I thought I might be pregnant, so I did not volunteer to coach.  However, since I am not pregnant, I decided I would coach again. 

We have our CPR/First Aid training for our foster care license tomorrow that will last all day.  Tonight, my best friend and I are treating ourselves to the movies, which rarely happens!  And finally, on Thursday my husband is scheduled for his varicoseile surgury.  The hubs said that he could just get his dad to take him so I did not have to use one of my days off to go with him, but I would be a nervous wreck at work. 

Also, I have been contemplating finding another OB/Gyn closer to home.  Our RE is 2 hours away and I don't want anymore fertility procedures. I just feel like my current OB/Gyn has some bad juju since I have had so many miscarriages there.  Also, if I am not pregnant, I just don't want to go back in there.  I would just like to find someone for my regular women needs like pap smears, someone to prescribe my Metformin, and just regular stuff. 


It is a busy but exciting time.!!!!!