haters

There is "someone I know" who has expressed some concern about us seeing a specialist about our miscarriages.  This individual feels that by seeking out help to get our son a sibling that it means that we are somehow not thankful about the son that we have.  I know some couples who have not yet had any children despite years of trying.  I feel complete sympathy with those couples and my heart hurts for them. There is not a day goes by that I don't thank God for my son.  I don't want others to think that we are somehow being ungrateful by wanting a sibling for him. 

I have always been really close with my younger brother.  My mom says that I started to ask for a baby brother or sister at around my sons age.  I have so many memories of us doing awesome stuff together like building forts, playing basketball, videogames, flashlight tag, and so on. Of course we fought like cats and dogs,too. As an adult, besides my husband, I consider my brother a best friend.  I talk to him almost every day. 

I asked my brother his opinion if I should pursue fertility treatments or adoption.  I asked him if he ever wished he was an only child and he said that he would have had more toys.  Then he admitted that I provided him with entertainment.  He gave me his blessing and I really appreciate that. 

When I got married to my husband, we agreed that we would like to have around 4-6 children, biological and adopted.  We have agreed that having a large family is something we both value. We also agreed that I would not "prevent pregnancy" by any form of contraceptive. I  have always worked with children, and I have felt that being a mother has been my calling.  I just think I need to take life day by day and not make specific goals.  I feel like my husband and I will do what is right for our family.