october

October is going to be a busy one!  I turned in our last packet of paperwork so now I am just waiting to schedule our home visit with the caseworker.  Also, even bigger news.... I bought a MINIVAN!!!!! Yep, it's pretty cool, and I could easily fit more children : )  I painted my kitchen chairs this weekend, with the help of my 16 year old niece and my 2 year old.  My lil' man is about to turn 3, so we have been planning his party.

Yesterday I talked with a couple who adopted their son from foster care 18 years ago!  It has been really great with the amount of support we have received! It is such a different vibe than with fertility treatments.  Every one seems very comfortable asking about the process and offering support.  People at church knew about our fertility treatments, however no one ever asked about them.  It's kinda odd.

It has been awesome how I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders with stopping all IF treatments and moving on.  I was watching the show Teen Mom (don't judge), and the therapist Dr. Drew was telling one of the mom's  that you have to let go of the fairy tale dreams that you had a child and move on to what is reality.  I did not plan to have recurrent miscarriages, but I do have my son, which is still an absolute miracle.  I am really optimistic about all this.

Also, I just want to say that some of my posts seem negative, but I am in complete vent mode when I write them.  I am a really laid back person in real life, and would never say the things I say in my blog.....