BCP : (

Well I started my period today, so I had a dr. appointment to check my ovaries to make sure that they have went back down to normal size.  Unfortunately, I have a huge cyst on my right ovary, a little bigger than a golf ball.  It was caused by the over-stimulation of my ovaries from the meds. I have to take birth control pills this month to get the cyst to shrink.  My doctor was impressed at how I reacted with the injectibles, so he wants to try IUI one more time.

So, now all I have to do is sit this month out : (  I was hoping to get through the fertility treatments this summer since I do not work, but shame on me for trying to plan something.  My plan is to enjoy my little boy and stay busy. 

Bad place

I feel like mentally I am in a bad place today. I am really feeling kinda  pissed off at the world and feeling sorry for myself.  AF should show up any day now, wahoo.

I talked with the nurse about thinking that maybe our IUI was not timed right.  We did the HCG shot on Thursday night at 9pm, and the IUI the next day and 2:30.  I have read that since our office only does one, it should be at 36 hours past HCG shot.  

Big Fat Negative

It sucks and there is not a whole lot more I can say.  2000 bucks down the drain.

the dreaded 2 week wait

DH was asking me today if I "felt pregnant".  I responded "Nope, I think pregnancy and PMS symptoms are exactly the same."  I just don't think we are lucky enough for it to work the first time.  I think it is something that will nearly drive me emotionally insane and/or financially drain us before another pregnancy will occur.   I hope I am wrong, I really do, but we have not been lucky in the baby department since I had my son.... I have not really talked about his  pregnancy, but it was not easy by any means. I was on strict bedrest for 17 weeks, 2 1/2 were in the hospital.  Thankfully I found a great doctor to put an abdominal cerclage to take care of those issues.


My second due date is approaching, and I will have no baby.   I am so grateful to have my son, more grateful than anyone will ever know.

5/12/11 dr appt

So yesterday I had my follow-up appointment for my iui, which they refer to as an "hcg check".  The lining of my uterus was 10 mm and they want it to be 8 or above, so that was great.   I had one corpus luteum  cyst on my left ovary and two on my right.  The corpus luteum cysts produce progesterone after you ovulate.  The two on my right side were huge.  The nurse said that based on my cysts she thinks I am making enough progesterone, but they did blood work to be sure. She thinks that I released at least 3 eggs from my right side and 1 on my left. My right ovary was huge, but she went ahead and gave me the second hcg booster shot.  Based on the size of my current right ovary, she said that I am going to be pretty uncomfortable this weekend.  She gave me a sheet that explains what to do about the Ovarian Hyper Stimulation.  I have to eat for egg whites a day, take 4 benadryl , lots of water, gatorade, and "take it easy"  Last night was my son's first soccer game, and I definitely ran around more than I should have since I am the coach.  I take my pregnancy test next friday,  so keep your fingers crossed!

Old dog

My old dog Spike is now on a very high dose of pain medication.  He has been urinating on himself instead of getting up to go to go to the bathroom.  He is still in a lot of pain and really doesn't move much.   I really feel bad for him.  I just want to give him some more time to hopefully get better.

Today is Mother's Day.  Happy Mothers Day to mother's everywhere.  I know it can be a tough day for those of you going through infertility hell.  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers today. 

IUI today

So I had my IUI today.  The most nerve -wracking part was transporting the sperm from the hospital to the doctors office. We were really nervous that were were going to get in a car accident or drop it....   The IUI procedure was comparible to a pap smear.  DH's sperm results were pretty good, I think the vitamins have really helped out.  Now the waiting begins.... I really hope that it worked.  I do know that it might not work : (  Infertility is an emotional rollercoaster.  DH was saying that if it did work then we would have even more to worry about : MISCARRIAGE.  My next pregnancy will be my 5th.  That seems like a lot, but what can you do.  Keep us in your thoughts and prayers!

ultrasound for iui 5/4/11

I had my ultrasound to check the progress of my eggs.  I have about 3 eggs that are maturing and about 6 or so smaller ones.  They gave me more Bravelle injections to take tonight to help the eggs get a little bigger.  My lining  was a little thin also, so they gave me a prescription for estrogen suppositories to start tonight.  DH is supposed to give me my HCG trigger shot tomorrow night (the HCG shot will make me ovulate).  Then on Friday, DH will go to a nearby hospital to release his "baby batter" .  They will do a procedure known as sperm washing, to get all the live sperm. We will take the "baby batter" with us back to my doc and they will do the insemination.  I am excited but mostly nervous.  DH thinks that his swimmers will not be good enough, but they have been good enough for me to get pregnant four times on my own without insemination. He doesn't give himself enough credit.  I think male infertility is a major blow to a man's self esteem.  Infertility has definitely effected him as much as me, but in a different way.

Our five year anniversary is coming up this summer and it makes me get teary eyed just thinking about it (ok, the fertility meds have made me a little emotional also : )  We have been through so much.  We were talking about it today and we hope the next five are a little less eventful.   

rain, injectables, more water in basement, chipped tooth, and old dog

It has been a busy one.  We have had more rain and therefore have more water in the basement : (

DH was able to give me my first shot last night, I am so proud of him.  The injections really upset my stomach, guess that's a no for chilli tonight. I dropped one of my Femara pills and it rolled under the baseboards and I could not reach it last night.  Luckily, CVS is going to give me another one. I have been waiting all day for my HCG injections to arrive via FedEx.


My son accidently chipped my front tooth so I go tomorrow to have it fixed.

I took my old dog Spike to the vet today because of arthritis and found out he has an enlarged heart.  I told him he can't die on me yet, I still need him.  He has been my best friend for 7 years!

Hopefully all this bad luck will lead to a BFP after friday!!!